Get a Grip WOMAN!

Why is it in my nature to create drama for myself when nothing has actually happened? Is there a lack of stimulus in my life? I find myself taking the facts, twisting them up, putting them back down and being upset they are all twisted up like that. I know insecurity is playing a part in my delusions, but maybe I am also missing something else. That is how I am feeling, incomplete. Patience is not a virtue of mine, but this might be a way to acquire it. I believe that my emotional reality is completely skewed. I cannot trust my gut. I'm trying to learn how to be satisfied by ways of seeing reality in the eyes of a minimalist, and find appreciation in what I do have instead of wanting more. I know my need for attention has to be fulfilled in other ways, and I can remember a time when I able to rely on myself for this. Again, struggling with balance and the ability to relax. I take things and analyze them until I am so wound up, my stomach hurts and my nose bleeds. There is no purpose to this except to create stress in my life. I am not sure why I do this to myself periodically, but I need to find a way to make peace.