Truly Letting Go...

I have decided that this is it -the last straw-the fat lady is singing. i am finally taking my hand out of the cookie jar, i am no longer leading the lost--this is not my position. i need to let the organic be organic- no more contriving. If it cannot be without my direction and lead, then it will never be real. You have to just let go, and the release will be nerve racking, but also a relief. There is no controlling this train wreck from the back seat. This is a difficult thing to have faith in something that has always failed you, but there is no other choice. Be strong, be objective, give credit where it is due, stay true to yourself and never settle. I have tried to have patience, but it is beginning to run thin. If things don't progress in a forwardly direction soon, i fear i will not be able to hold on much longer. It's not real if you are giving away all the answers, so it is time to be free of the burden an allow the antagonist to be the bearer. Time is of the essence, it's do or die, step up or step off.